Hey, I'm Rebecca and self improvement starts here. I am trying my hardest to do this the healthy way and in return, I am winning. This is the diary of my often hidden away secrets. I have struggled with my weight more so , body image, for as long as I can remember. I am extremely self conscious and very, very timid when it comes to talking about my weight with my family and/or friends. I am trying my hardest to obtain a healthy body image along with a thinner, more toned frame. Also, I hope to gain the confidence I have been lacking through my years of existence.
My better will be better then their better!
Let's be friends and help each other obtain our goals. I have faith we CAN do this, together.
18 years old ll 5'3
HW:178
SW: 163( 12/01/10)
GW 4: 130
UGW 125-130
CW: 118 ( 06/07/11)
I’m back, guys.
I haven’t been posting as frequently as I once did and I probably should catch you with my up-down life/progress. I came on to this site desperate to change my body. To shed some pounds and gain heaps of confidence that would replace any such previous doubt. I came onto this site, hopelessly searching for answers.
My journey on here started off incredible. Healthy intake, gym 6 days a week, running, jumproping, 30 day shred. you name it- i did it. BUT, as the months progressed, and the weight dripped off, I still wasn’t happy. Yeah, seeing the number on the scale drop week after week was rewarding, BUT, I couldn’t physically see any sort of difference. Inside, I was still well just me.
A dangerous thing began to happen. I started into a downward spiral that has sent me into numerous struggles. My biggest problem was, I realized how much control I really did/still have. & I began telling myself that every time I would go to eat something. I began to dramatically over exercise and limit my food intake to a bare minimum. If I dared touched anything not in the least bit healthy, I would feel guilty for days upon days. Every day, I looked into the mirror and ran my hand over my tummy to make sure it didn’t come back. The number on the scale continued to drop and instead of getting compliments, I started to get a bountiful amount of negativty. I started to hear ” YOU’RE TOO SKINNY” … I went into a patch of depression. The last and final toll was when I passed out due to a nutrient deficiency. That’s when I realized, for real, that I was killing myself. That in reality, I am my biggest problem, BUT MY ONLY SOLUTION.
I am still getting myself out of my old trend and re-starting with the fit,strong Rebecca you all once knew. ( My calves are still rockin’,btw!) I believe this all was just a hurdle and I am going to soar above it. That my promise to you guys, and more importantly to myself. Stronger is sexier, Always remind yourselves that.
Is strength training harmful?
Yes.
With additional strength and muscle mass, you will become irresistible to the opposite sex, which will raise your risk of STDs, and cause you to lose sleep and productivity, due to the numerous additional opportunities for casual sexual activity.
You may also lose friends, who enjoyed having the “fat guy” or the “scrawny dork” around to make them look better by comparison.
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omg swag
(Source: thespartanwarrior)
I know I’ve said this before, but Marisa Miller’s body is my ultimate goal.
